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Monday, November 17, 2003

birthday blues

as you all might have already known...it's my birthday today. it didn't hit me until i was having dinner today with friends and they got me a cake...actually it was a joint cake with meng jinn. thanks you guys for all the effort and wishes :) anyway...we had the whole birthday song routine and cutting of the cake. followed by the extraction of candles using only the mouth. it was fun until it finally hit me that i'm a year older.

birthdays for me is a time to reflect on the year that has past...what have i achieved...what have i gained...what have i learned.....nothing. time might as well have stood still this year. i've gone nowhere and my life hasn't changed. i've done some travelling and i've met some new people over the past year but career-wise i remain stagnant and in matters of the heart and mind i'm still lost. but then again who has all the answers? i don't think i've met a single person who is not lost in one way or another. so i guess i'm just part of the norm :)

anyway...a couple of friends and i went for supper at A&W just now and they picked me up from my birthday blues and cheered me up. i sat in an airplane and flew across the world and two of my friends rumbled with a bear :) not to mention the pioneer of stupidity and spontanaeity who drove for what seemed like hours listening to the song 'hi ho' from snow white and the seven dwarves. nobody on earth (except the four of us) will understand what happened. on the way home from supper...my dearest friend actually drove backwards on a stretch of road and rolled down a hill for me. thanks guys for the laughs :)

i guess i subject myself to self inflicted pain sometimes. i dote over small little things and i ponder about issues that have no answers just so that i can wallow in my sorrows sometimes. but when i'm out with my friends...they always manage to cheer me up in the most unsuspecting ways. bear in mind that they don't do it on purpose...my friends are just 'nutty' by nature. and so am i.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!