Saturday, November 15, 2003
long lost.....
it seems to me that there are friends that stick with you for as long as you want/need them to..and there are the kind of friends that come and go. i've been around for 22 years and the people that i mix with now are the people that i met about 4 years ago. what happened to those friends that i was close with prior to that? i know people change in time and we all drift our separate ways but i've always wondered why it has to be so for me. i see people hanging out with each other since high school and sometimes even primary school and i wonder how they do it.in life...there will be people who are destined to leave your life. where they go is a mystery...but the impact they've made will stay with you for a long time. lessons are learned from past mistakes or past relationships (not only intimate ones but platonic ones as well). and we're supposed to learn from these mistakes so we know where not to go and what not to do in the future.
but then there's also the question of whether that person leaves a positive or negative impact. after every break up and after every friend that is lost i start to question myself. did i do anything wrong? why have we gone our separate ways? yada yada yada...and sometimes i come to the conclusion that there's never always a reason or a lesson to learn. i don't know where i'm actually getting with all this. i'm just quite pissed off because i've lost a few friends recently and i'm just wondering whether it's me that's the problem.
oh well...spoke to my brother last night. he's coming back for chinese new year. i'm so excited. my brother is in the States working and has been for 2 years i think. prior to that he was studying in MD for 2 years so i haven't seen him in a grand total of 4 years. since he's coming back i'm taking the opportunity to import some stuff back from the States. now if i can just figure out what i want....
it's raining really heavy right now and by right i shouldn't be on the computer when it's raining. but i'm too lazy to log off and get my ass to bed so i'll just pray that lightning doesn't strike...my modem that is. watched a mildly entertaining movie earlier today called 'duplex'. ben stiller is still funny but drew barrymore can't do funny. it's a mindless movie if you're interested in watching something that does not require much thought.
was invited to a friends brother's wedding which will be next sunday night. wonder if i'll meet any cute guys there...tee heee.... :) but that's not the point of going to a wedding dinner. the whole point of going to a wedding dinner is to rejoice in the union of two people in love. i don't have anything to wear to the wedding dinner. time to shop :)
went to BBplaza today to visit the new french connection outlet that just opened. nothing much to buy but i did buy a top for a hundred buckeroos. now i'm seriously regretting it although i do love the top...i don't think it's worth a hundred bucks. i did make up spending that much money on 1 item by buying another one that's really cheap. i guess everything does work out :)
note to self: no more shopping until christmas
feefs, 12:47 PM
