Saturday, February 28, 2004
i need help
didn't get much sleep earlier this morning which would explain why i woke up late for work. my alarm clock seemed to have dieded on me and with such bad timing. so i went to work 20 minutes late hoping that my tardiness would go unnoticed and when i got there...there was no one in my studio. i figured that maybe they were tired of waiting for me and just picked up and left but it turns out that they never did show up so i guess things did turn out for the best after all. my next student came and i felt like i was going to just nod off right there in my chair. i had a grand total of 3 hours of sleep over 48 hours and if you all know me well enough you'd know that it's normal.my mother gave one long winded lecture about how my life seems to be headed nowhere and she's right. i don't sleep...i don't eat...i go to work with a chip on my shoulder...i spend most of my time reading and watching crap...it's no wonder she thinks i'm a no hoper. anyway...as with all her lectures it just went in one ear and came out the other. what i don't understand is why she still insists on doing it when she knows i'll never listen. she's talking to me and i'm reading the papers and when she asks me questions i never answer but she still goes on and on and on. she knows for a fact that i'm not paying attention...i'm hearing but i'm not listening. i'd slap someone if he/she didn't pay attention to me when i'm talking. maybe she should slap me...then i'd really take her seriously. oh well...i guess mothers will always be mothers...and daughters will always be daughters. i should take her more seriously but heck...that'll take the fun out of being a rebellious kid. i wonder whether she takes any pleasure in nagging?
high of the day as of 8.05pm: not knowing what's going to happen next.
low of the day: oversleeping
feefs, 4:05 AM
