Wednesday, June 09, 2004
first pay cheque
ok...so i'm back in singapore. i have to admit that a certain part of me missed this place while i was back home. i don't think i actually missed singapore per say. i think i missed my routine. i missed getting up and going to work and coming back from work all tired out. i missed not having anything to do. it's funny how when i was back home i didn't realize how fulfilling a full time job could be. to actually be doing something worthwhile with my day. but then again...maybe i didn't miss work. maybe i just got comfortable with it all and going home for a week just felt different. i don't know...this whole comfort zone thing is dangerous stuff. remember how i said i had a comfort zone back home. not having to worry about work or money...i always had my parents to support me when i was in need. i always had my friends around. being in singapore is a whole lot more different. i am completely on my own. maybe i got used to it sooner than i expected.anyway...i was just thinking on my bus ride back that it sucks to be a level headed independent 23 year old. sometimes i wish i had the whole college life thing. i started working way too early. it's been 4 years now and i see my friends who are graduating or who have already graduated and i envy them. i'm 23 and i've been working for 4 years. i never had the college life or a uni life. ever since i was 18 i have been more or less self sufficient. i earned my own money...supported myself (occasionally with the help of my parents of course)...i pretty much was independent way too early. i was talking to a friend and he said that he believes that i am very capable of taking care of myself. i wish people didn't think of me that way. i wish people would think that i'm capable of screwing up once in awhile. but it's true. i'm always thinking about right and wrong...good and bad. i'm always thinking about the 'safe' thing to do. it sucks to have to be responsible for myself. i wish i had someone to blame for my screw ups.
but i'm lucky in some ways. i have parents who are completely supportive...parents who give me the freedom to do whatever i want to do....parents who are open minded. i also have friends who are there for me when i need them. i have a job that i enjoy. i guess some people envy me in that sense. but it's never enough ey. i used to tell myself that all i need in life is a good job...great friends...and my family. even though i have all that now i still feel that something is missing somewhere. and even though i figure out what that is and obtain it...i have this feeling that it still wouldn't be enough. we humans are greedy by nature. we always want more. i don't exactly know what more i want but i'll figure it out sooner or later.
on a brighter note...i got my first singaporean pay cheque today and it felt really good :)
fun facts for today :)
- because of the rotation of the earth, an object can be thrown farther if it is thrown west.
- one out of every three people can’t snap their fingers
- klingons don't have tear ducts
- a cow spends 18 hours a day chewing
- a giraffe can go without water longer than a camel
- chickens can't swallow while they are upside down
- the nail on the thumb grows the slowest
- hitler was a vegetarian
- it is possible to lead a cow upstairs but now down
- a giraffe has a 20 inch tongue
- a cockroach breaks wind every 15 minutes
- nepal is the only country that doesn't have a rectangular or a square flag
- a flamingo can only eat when its head is upside down
- an eyelash lives for about 5 months
- honeybees...turtles and termites are all deaf
- a pig's orgasm can last up to 30 minutes
- there are no public toilets in Peru
- only 3% of mammals are monogamous
- the atlantic ocean is saltier than the pacific ocean
- average number of times a man will ejaculate in his lifetime: 7,200
- average speed of male ejaculation: 28 miles per hour.
- it is physically impossible for a pig to look up at the sky
- a crocodile cannot stick out its tongue
- a shrimp's heart is located in its head
feefs, 10:33 AM
