Friday, June 25, 2004
i want to go on a holiday
it's funny how coming to singapore has completely changed my lifestyle. i'm not in a position to just up and leave anymore. i used to be able to just plan things like going to thailand and melbourne. the only type of travel i can do now is imaginary. i can think about it but i can't talk about it or plan it. what's the use? it's disappointing and frustrating. the only trips i can plan are those that take me back home. how exciting is that? don't get me wrong...i love going home to see my friends and family and to be able to drive a car....but sometimes i wish i could just see more. it doesn't have to be a far away place like europe or south africa...it just has to be somewhere different. well...i'm young...still have lots of time to travel.i'm in the midst of downloading fahrenheit 9/11. it hasn't been officially released yet so i'm hoping that it's the correct copy. don't wanna turn it on and find a bunch of people humping in what seems to be the ruins of the world trade centre amongst ashes and bits and pieces of airplanes.
i watched a pretty weird movie yesterday called 'lost and delirious'. ms. coyote ugly piper perabo was in it. along with some other people that looked familiar but i just can't place a name or a title to a movie that they starred in. if you are a homophobe then i suggest you don't watch the movie. but if you're into lesbian scenes then there are certain bits and pieces that would be interesting.
which brings me to my next question. when someone says the word homophobe i always assumed it was a fear of gay and lesbians. cause hey...gays and lesbians are homosexuals. but i think it's not so much of fear. people tend to use the word homophobe when they're talking about someone who loathes homosexuals. ok but that's not the point. the point is...why is it more acceptable for girls to be homosexual as opposed to men? is it the 'up the ass' thing? is it the notion that men are supposed to be more macho...hence there shouldn't be too much testosterone in a relationship? i'm no homophobe. in fact...i believe that everyone has the right to choose who they want to fall in love with...be it a man or a woman. i find gays and lesbians fascinating. not in the 'circus freak' kind of way but they seem to be more emotional. they're more in touch with their feelings and they tend to be more sensitive towards others. i'm not saying that heterosexual people aren't emotional or sensitive. they just don't seem to show is as much as homosexuals do.
anyway...i think i'm straying from my initial thought. that's what happens when i think too fast and type too slow. i miss out on a lot of details.
feefs, 10:21 AM
