Tuesday, July 06, 2004
goodbye my friend
i was confronted by a very painful situation today. as i was talking to my friend on msn he informed me that a dear friend of mine passed away earlier this morning. it took me awhile to really sink it in. the first thing i did was to try and find all sorts of excuses to make myself believe that it wasn't true. i kept asking whether he was kidding and i tried to call my friends to find out whether any of them had heard the same news. i'm sorry elaine for asking asinine questions and thanks for putting up with me. after a few phone calls i found out that it was indeed true. that was when i broke down and cried for a good hour or so.even though he was the type of friend that i didn't see much i knew that he'd be there for me if ever i needed him. even though he was in UK we still kept in touch and talked about everything and nothing in particular. we made plans to meet up and do the things that we both enjoyed when he returned to KL. i looked forward to seeing him again and talking to him because our conversations were always interesting. he made me laugh...and he made me think. i remember in our last conversation....he made me promise him that i'd come back from singapore when he called and we'd meet up and dedicate a whole entire day to doing absolutely nothing. we had so much more to teach each other and to learn from each other.
i know many people might not realize that i was close to him or that i even had a friendship with him. but like i said...even though he wasn't around much and we never really saw each other...we had a unique friendship and i will truly miss him.
feefs, 6:00 AM
