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Saturday, July 31, 2004

sometimes i wonder why i came here in the first place. i used to think that it was because of the opportunities...the adventure...the experience of it all. other times i think it's just something i did out of spontanaeity. i signed those papers without thinking of the consequences. all i was thinking was "hey...great...big money...new place!!". so i'm sitting here in my empty 5 by 5 room listening to sarah mclachlan and i'm thinking....

things haven't been great ever since i moved here. things weren't exactly great before i moved here either. there are certain things in my life that i'm satisfied with. i have a good job and unlike many people i actually enjoy my job...i make good money...i have great friends. but there are certain things that are just hanging by a thread. my family is definitely a question mark and it's always been a question mark for sometime now. somehow i just feel unsatisfied....like something is missing...something is just not clicking. i don't exactly know what it is....i can't exactly pinpoint it. it's been bugging me for awhile now and i thought moving here would change something.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that i can run away from things....geographically...emotionally...physically. but when i'm alone...listening to the sound of silence...the real world comes back. all the things that i ran away from just creeps back in and it comes back ten folds. it's not this place that's making things bad....i guess it's the tremendous amount of alone time i have here that makes things clearer. i get to reflect...to recollect...and to reconsider. unfortunately...i can't reconsider moving here...i've got another 21 month road ahead of me. we all make mistakes...i guess i made mine big time. in the meantime...i'll just make the best out of it. bottomline....you can run away....you can try to hide...it'll be a different place...a difference face...but the same sadness...the same loneliness will always be creeping in.

oh well....i'm going to try and make the best out of my week and head down to the city tomorrow night to watch mardi gras. it's a stage show about 'gay pride'. at least it takes me out of this little box i call a room for a few hours :)

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Thursday, July 29, 2004

the trocks

a 14 man...and i do mean 'men' ballet company is coming to singapore in september. i'm still contemplating whether i should go despite the exhorbitant prices of the tickets. it would be nice to see how 14 men can pull off a swan lake like performance. they'll be en pointe which isn't something that we normally witness at a ballet performance. hrm....it's something that i should seriously consider.

i forgot to mention my run in with some african dude in the bus on route back to singapore. this tall african dude who doesn't speak english very well wanted to bum a cigarette off me so being the nice person that i am i just obliged. then he comes back asking me whether he can sit with me and that's when i started to realize that this dude is big trouble. so when i got on the bus i immediately sidled my way into a single seater seat to get out of having to sit next to him or anyone else on the bus for that matter. even after making it really obvious that i wanted to be alone and sleep he kept bugging me...asking me whether i wanted to sit next to him. is it just me or are foreigners really bad with rejection? anyway...long story short...i just ignored him all the way to johor and even after i got off the bus at johor and he tried to talk to me and follow me into singapore i just completely ignored him. i guess i finally got the picture just before we reached customs where he got off and was never to be seen again.

why am i always a target for freaks without a leash? i try to keep to myself and go my way unnoticed but i still get freaks who don't speak english and taxi drivers on my back. ugh...i just wanna be left alone. anyway...after that incident on the bus i have to reconsider going back so often. now i know what people mean when they say it's not safe on a bus. not only are we in danger of being involved in an accident...i'm also in danger of freaks on the loose. but heck...i can take care of myself pretty well....i hope :)

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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

in a nutshell

a friend of mine came down to singapore over the weekend last week. she managed to convince me into going to Zouk. actually she didn't convince me....it was more like she kidnapped me. oh well...i did have more fun than i expected. in a nutshell....i paid S$25 to get picked up by some stupid ang mohs who can't take rejection very well and to just stand amongst the crowd for about an hour and a half.

on the same day...i found out that this taxi driver that sent me to the bus station a few weeks back called my office looking for me. in a nutshell...he wanted to ask me to go out for dinner and i said no way and i'm hoping that he won't ever turn up ever again.

went back home for 2 days to visit my brother since he just came back from the U.S. in a nutshell...he has taken over my room and my car. i also managed to catch up with my friends back home. in a nutshell....we played mahjong and i lost a substantial amount of money. it was bound to happen...i can't be on a winning streak for 6 months can i?

i bumped into a friend at 1 utama the other day and we got to talking for a bit. she asked me what i was doing now and i told her i was teaching in singapore. her reaction to that...and i quote..."oh my gawd...the most notorious girl in school is now a teacher?" that somehow got me to thinking. i know i'm a good teacher...i know i have a talent that not many people have...but i'm wondering whether there's something else that i can do better. something that i haven't thought of...something that i haven't tried or pursued. people look at me and they don't see someone who is fit to be a teacher. maybe i'm not. maybe i'm meant to do something else. but what is it? i've always encouraged my friends and the people around me to do what makes them happy. to dare to try and dare to fail. to learn from their mistakes and to rise from them. if one doesn't try...one will never know. so i guess if i don't try to pursue anything else other than teaching i wouldn't find out whether it's what i'm meant to do or not.

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Sunday, July 25, 2004

ishimaru ayumi?

My japanese name is ?? Ishimaru (round stone) ? Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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that's if i had a japanese name. but fortunately i'm not japanese cause if i were i would've had a tough time in school. kids would pick on me and call me names. but then again...it wouldn't have been much difference. i would've been picked on regardless of which continent i'm from. my parents have a twisted sense of humor when it comes to naming kids. it's like they hated us when we were born and wanted us to have a bad childhood. oh well...i turned out pretty ok. i just hope my brothers and half siblings will rise above too.

i've been doing a lot of reflection lately. it must be all the free time i have in the bus. so today's topic was mistakes and regrets...two of which kinda go together. i have made some mistakes that i don't regret because if i didn't make those mistakes i wouldn't know what not to do. there are mistakes that i wished i never made. things that could've been prevented...things that i just did to make myself happy regardless of how it would affect the people around me...vice versa. there are certain things in my life that i would like to do differently. decisions that have been made cannot be undone...time cannot be erased. sometimes...we think we're doing the right thing...the logical and rational thing. we make decisions based on the 'now' and not the 'later on'.

i know i tend to focus on the day instead of the years to come. i'm more preoccupied with getting through today that i don't think about how my actions will affect my future. and once the decision has been made there is no turning back. it's not something that can be undone...not something that i can take back. fortunately for me...i'm the only person suffering the consequences of my actions and i truly am glad that the burden is on me alone. sometimes i wish that there was someone else around who feels the same pain as i do...the same regret. isn't it unfair for me to be the only one who's suffering? but eventually i realize that i wouldn't want to wish my fate upon anyone else.

i do regret what i did. if i could do it all over again...i would've approached the situation differently and changed my course of action. but i can't. the only thing i can do is endure and carry it with me for the rest of my life. am i stronger because of it? i wish i could say for sure that i was and that i've come out of it unscathed but i think that part comes after i accept and recover. that isn't going to be anytime soon.

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Friday, July 23, 2004

two for the price of one?

i made my first pizza delivery order today. couldn't find the number for domino's (i don't even know whether they exist in singapore) so i googled the word 'pizza delivery singapore' and found pizza hut...american pizza and canadian pizza. since i've heard of pizza hut i decided to be adventurous and try either one of the other two. i ini-mini-myni-moed it and went with canadian pizza. i mean how much of a difference can the canadian pizza be from a normal italian or should i say pseudo italian pizza that i normally eat. boy was i wrong on that one. it didn't even taste like pizza. it wasn't bad....just erm....different. not my preferred kind of different though. it was semi burnt...not sure whether that's the way its supposed to be but it seemed pretty over cooked for me. in addition to that...there was too little tomatoe paste and i normally love my pizza's with lotsa tomatoe paste.

but the funny part about the whole thing was the call that i made for the order. i dialled the number and this lady picked up so i asked her whether they make deliveries over to my area and she transfered me to the Hougang branch which is actually pretty near to where i live. so i spoke to the lady at the hougang branch and i told her that i just wanted a regular beef pepperoni with cheese and she said "ok...that will be 21.90...what about your second pizza?" i was like....i'm only one person...i don't need two regular pizzas. that's when she tells me that they're having a 2 for the price of 1 promotion going on and i was like "geez...how sad is that". not because theres so much competition that they have to come up with promos like this but because i am only one person. when she said the words 2 for the price of 1 i immediately had a flash of names going through my head of the number of people i know in this country. only 2 names came up. then i thought to myself....how many out of these 2 people would like a free pizza at 10.30pm....the answer is NONE.

so anyway...i'm having a really bad flu and a slight fever but i'm still going to work on time everyday. i don't want to have to take a day or two off and have to make up for it later on. i figured i'd save all my sick days for something that really matters. my temperature at this moment is apparently 38.8 degrees...i'm assuming it's in celcius. my colleague zapped me in the ear with one of those thermometers thingamajigs and she just said "38.8...u have a fever". then it dawned upon me that i don't even know what constitutes a fever. she could've said "20...u have a fever" and i would've believed her. isn't it something that i should know? what if i'm all alone and incapacitated and i have no one but myself to take my own temperature and the thermometer that i have does not come with instructions? then i figured....there's always the internet. heck...i can find the number to canadian pizza...i'm sure i can find instructions on how to determine whether i have a fever :)

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Thursday, July 22, 2004

bent out of shape

this morning i dared myself to actually go jogging in the park. i came back with a spinning headache and a slight hint of nausea as well as a body that felt like rubber. i think i only jogged for about 20 minutes before feeling like my head was going to explode. in any case...i'm still determined to get off my butt tomorrow and give it another go. maybe i'll go slow tomorrow...15 minutes maybe. or maybe i might not even go as far as the park. i'll just jog to the park and back instead of jogging around the park. i'm still not losing any weight and instead of feeling healthier i'm feeling dizzy during my waking hours.

i had a funny dream today and the day before. the gist of the dream is similar but the setting was different. it all boils down to the fact that there are certain things that i want but i know i cannot get. but then i keep telling myself that there is no such thing as the word 'never'. at least not when it comes to things that can be controlled either by myself or by others. the one thing that makes it worse is that i had something great but i lost it. it is my fault that i it is no longer with me and i have to bear the consequences. sometimes it's easier if we just had someone or something else to blame for our mistakes. if i lost my phone i'd be really pissed at myself for being irresponsible but if it was stolen it'll be a whole different story. it's still the result of my wrecklessness but it wouldn't entirely be my fault.

so i wait...and i keep on waiting and hoping that i'll find it again. meanwhile...i watch people pass me by...having what i lost...savouring what i once had. was it stolen from me? i wish it was...then it would be much easier to place blame. what they have is something brand new. what i had was something that aged with time and is now just a passing memory soon to fade into nothing. i miss it though...tremendously. so i'm waiting....hoping...wishing...

it's time to bring back some fun facts:-

- According to manufacturer Spalding, the average lifespan of an NBA basketball is 10,000 bounces.
- The animal responsible for the most human deaths worldwide is the mosquito (is the mosquito an animal?)
- The animal with the largest brain in proportion to its size is the ant (once again..are ants animals?)
- A bumble bee flaps its wings 160 beats per second
- If you are classified as a POSSLQ by the Census Bureau, you are a "Person of Opposite Sex, Sharing Living Quarters." (and that would be important how?)
- The odds against flipping a coin head's up 10 times in a row are 1,023 to 1
- A "hairbreadth away" is 1/48 of an inch
- The thirteenth of the month falls on Friday more often than on any other day of the week. In a 400-year period, there will be 688 Friday the thirteenths, as compared to 687 Sundays or Wednesdays, the next highest number
- Despite its hump, a camel has a straight spine.
- It is the female lion who does more than 90 percent of the hunting, while the male is afraid to risk his life, or simply prefers to rest (sounds like 90% of the men i know)
- A baby blue whale is 25 feet long at birth (holy mother of *od that's huge)
- Dolphins do not breath automatically, as humans do, and so they do not sleep as humans do. If they become unconscious, they would sink to the bottom of the sea. Without the oxygen they need to take in periodically, they would die
- Dolphins swim in circles while they sleep with the eye on the outside of the circle open to keep watch for predators. After a certain amount of time, they reverse and swim in the opposite direction with the opposite eye open
- Each eye of the chameleon is independent of the other. The lizard can watch and study two totally different pictures at the same time. (i've always wondered how they determined things like that)
- Eagles mate while airborne
- Elephants have been known to remain standing after they die (apparently so do men?)
- Lions sleep up to 20 hours a day (where do they find time to have sex 50 times a day?)

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Saturday, July 17, 2004

random observations

i realized today that it takes the elevator 20 seconds to ascend to the 10th floor. i'm not one to know whether 20 seconds for 10 floors is the average speed that an elevator should travel but it does seem pretty long to me. it always feels uncomfortable when there's some other dude in the elevator breathing down my neck. it feels as if they're staring at me and judging me. they're probably summing me up in the 20 seconds that we're in the lift together. the thoughts that probably run through their minds are:
 
- this girl doesn't live here
- she must be malaysian
- why isn't she in a school uniform
- that's one fat bitch
- someone must've set her hair on fire
- why doesn't she iron her clothes
- she's got really small feet
 
and countless others. i find myself in situations where people are looking at me funny. most of them are old uncles and aunties who just stare at me with this disapproving look. in those situations i'm usually smoking at a bus stand. anyway...i'd like to think that i'll be out of here in 21 months so i won't have to endure it for much longer.
 
i spend a lot of time in buses and trains and i realize that the natives aren't very polite. you know how they're always encouraging the young and able bodied commuters to make way for the older generation...handicapped...pregnant and mothers with babies? they even have signs as well as announcements to promote these acts of kindness. even then the natives seem to be ignorant when an elderly woman enters the bus/train. they pretend as if they didn't notice and continue to enjoy the comforts of the not-so-comfortable seats. they'll be frantically playing with their handphones or some of them might even be sleeping. the only people who sacrifice their seats to these less abled people are foreigners. how perverse is that?
 
now this is what i don't get. when people sleep on the bus/train how would they know when they've reached their stop? trains are pretty easy because there's a PA system but even then it's not very loud and i've seen some people sleep through the announcements. maybe they're just pretending to sleep. oh well...i guess i can always try it someday but i don't want people to look at me the way i look at others slumbering in the bus/train. buses and trains are another place for people to be put on display and judged. no wonder the people in this country maintain such fine appearances.
 
anyway...i have decided to start a diet next week after i return from KL. i'll only eat one meal a day and it'll be chicken rice or a pastry or something light. i'm going to try to revert back to my normal eating habits while i was back home and see whether it does anything to my unmentionable weight.
 
ooh....the actorlympics is on next month. i'm definitely going to go back to catch a show or two. for those of you who have no idea what the actorlympics are....don't fret. just go down to actors studio bangsar and buy yourself a ticket. trust me...you'll enjoy it :)

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Thursday, July 15, 2004

pseudo beer belly

ok...so i went window shopping on my days off hoping that it would just pass the time but i ended up buying 2 pairs of levi's jeans...renting 10 vcds...eating food that i can't afford and erm...spending money on unnecessary stuff such as taxis and lots of chocolate. i was so close to actually purchasing a new phone but decided that i would have to live on bread alone for the next 3 weeks if i do. so i'll get the phone next month :)

anyway...things have been pretty slow lately. i'm constantly downloading 'whose line is it anyway?' and it's my only source of entertainment. ooh...besides the 'friends' vcds that i've been renting from video ezy. i'm still contemplating whether i should go back this week and i'm leaning towards 'yes i should go back so that i won't be able to go shopping in singapore on the last week of the great singapore sale'. this place is just hazardous to my wallet.

the real shocker this week is that i've been exercising. umpteen situps and hundreds of twists. i'm hoping to be able to fit snugly into my jeans without having to hold my breath and continue to just suck in everytime i'm in them. at the moment i don't see no change but it's only been a week so i figured i'll give it another 3 more weeks. if my routine doesn't work then i'm either not doing it right or i'm doomed to have a pseudo beer belly. i hope that all my efforts are not going to waste. off to bed...long day tomorrow.

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Monday, July 12, 2004

beyond the traffic light

i dared to venture beyond the traffic light on the right side of my apartment building today. i've been living here for 2 and a half months and when i go out....i usually go in the same direction...left. i discovered that there is a 7 11 outlet and mcdonalds about 4 bus stops away from my place. it's within walking distance but taking the bus is so much easier.

the greatest discovery of the day is the video ezy store down the street. i was just walking around and decided to step into the store. the lady there was really friendly and managed to talk me into registering. it's free so i figured why not. i didn't have any intention of renting anything cause it's expensive but once again...the friendly lady managed to talk me into renting 5 vcds for S$15. oh well...i'm not exactly complaining though.

i headed down to plaza singapura to do some grocery shopping. the nearest carrefour is 5 MRT stops away. anyway...while i was shopping i noticed a lot of gay couples doing their grocery shopping today. it was so sweet. then this bunch of japanese people created havoc by destroying the luncheon meat display. it was quite an interesting experience. after grocery shopping i was walking around just to see what the Sale had in store for the customers. i found myself being followed by 2 girls. eventually they approached me and told me that they were from a church group. the last thing i needed was a bunch of christian loving nuts preaching God's word. they wanted me to attend their church service and some talk that they are conducting this saturday. being the polite and honest person i am...i just told them that i needed to work saturday and couldn't make it. it takes much more than that to get them off my back. eventually i managed to pry myself away from them but even then they were kinda following me to see whether i was telling the truth when i said i needed to leave.

note: levi's singapore is having a sale.

anyway...that was my day in a big nutshell.

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

'freedom'

i discovered that wearing boxers (without underwear) can be an exhilirating experience. i know that this is a public blog and that anyone can read what i'm writing but i believe that i should share my new found sense of 'freedom' with everyone. i was doing chores commando style and it was liberating. i don't really know how to explain it but if you don't have a pair of boxers...go get some. this only applies to girls. guys..i don't exactly know how it feels to be in your position so go get a man's opinion.

what happens when you put me in a foreign country with no friends...no money...no entertainment and no food? absolutely nothing. i'm into my 3rd hour of not having to work and i've already ran out of things to do. i've done my laundry...cleaned my room...ironed my clothes...and there's nothing left. i've got no money to go out...or should i say i don't want to spend my money by going out cause i know i'll probably spend half on it on things that i don't need. knowing me...i'll end up buying a couple of things before i even reach my intended destination. so what do i do? i sit down in my empty little room in this tiny little apartment that still does not have a fridge and i download 'whose line is it anyway?' and 'six feet under'.

i have to say that whose line is it anyway is one of the most hilarious shows i've ever seen. just looking at ryan's face can make me laugh. six feet under is another fascinating show. who would've thought that a tv series about morticians can be such a big hit. i mean yes there was adams family but that was a comedy (or at least it tried to be one). even so...six feet under is pretty addictive and even though it doesn't have the humour or action that i'd like...i'm still drawn to it. that's my way of saying that it is a good watch...although it's not for everyone. ooh...there are some pretty intense gay scenes i.e men kissing each other and cuddling and erm...rubbing half naked bodies...so if you're homophobic and purge at the sight of men showing affection (to other men that is) don't watch it.

things haven't been the same since my friend passed away though. every now and then the thought of him comes back to me. work has managed to keep my sane but i do find myself a little more impatient and edgy as usual. maybe i just need to give it some time to sink in. being here all alone with no friends and no one to talk to isn't helping either. i guess that's what i got myself into and i guess i just have to stick it out for the next 21 months. in the meantime...i'm going to go watch more of 'whose line is it anyway?' and 'six feet under'.

*i miss you sweetie :)*

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Friday, July 09, 2004

just shoot me

i've been in kind of a funk lately. it's probably because of what happened earlier this week. i keep thinking about my friend who passed away. the things that i want to say to him. i replay our past experiences over and over again. it's haunting...and definitely distracting. nonetheless...i am back in singapore and am determined to go back to work and show some semblance of sanity. i'm very good at feigning sanity. i do it everyday.

anyway...i just arrived and the first thing i usually do when i arrive is set up my laptop and my internet connection. it's a habit. i'm really hungry but there's nothing to eat around here. everything is closed...even on a friday night. since i extended my last visit back i won't be going back to kl for another 2 and a half weeks. i guess it's time for me to start living here and make like a singkie. i should go to a shopping mall and walk around on my days off. i've actually been meaning to take a bus ride round the island. just hop on buses and see where they take me. it would be an interesting adventure. just me...my crossword puzzles...my cds and nowhere to go. i also need to do a bit of shopping for birthday presents. since the singapore sale is still on i think i'll go find some good bargains.

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Thursday, July 08, 2004

evolution?

i've had a lot of time to think over the past few days. i've been going through a period of self inflicted solitary confinement throughout most of my days. my activities include reflection..dissection..and ultimately acceptance.

i realized over the weeks that i've been back...that things have changed. i still haven't pinpointed whether this so called change stems from me or from the people around me. i keep looking back...reminiscing the times that once were and how i was so free. i had everything that i ever wanted and i was truly happy. have you ever had a moment where you just stop and think to yourself "i am happy right now" and just smile? it's been a long time since i've had one of those moments. a moment where everything seems to fit into place and there's no missing pieces. right now i have many things to be happy about. i have a job that i enjoy...i have parents who are supportive...i have friends who i can count on...i am independent and self sufficient...i am financially stable. but somehow there's something missing.

have i changed? have my expectations been raised? do i want more now that i've achieved this much? is it not enough? or do i just feel this way because i chose to go away? many things have changed since i left. friends who were once there are distant now. some of those that i still hold dear are still by my side. but it's only natural to grow distant when there are 3 states and a causeway standing between us. and i always thought that absence would only make my trips back and our time together more precious. i guess i was wishing for a pie in the sky.

this post has no real reason or direction. the one problem that i've always had is that i think too fast. before i can finish typing one thought i've already had 3 other thoughts pass me by. don't get me wrong...i love my friends and they're a good bunch. it's just that circumstances have changed and therefore we evolve. i don't blame them...i only blame myself. but how i wish things could go back to the way they were...and we're all sitting down together...having drinks...laughing and talking like we used to.

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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

a great friend

throughout the day i've been going through all the conversations that i've had with my friend before he passed on. we talked about anything and everything under. we even had this little bit where we'd tell each other something really embarassing that we'll keep between the both of us. we only started getting closer just before he left for UK and we continued our friendship through instant messages and emails. he had a habit of being able to make me laugh out loud even though i'm reading his punch lines in message boxes. my mind just keeps replaying all the things he said to me. things about his family...his goals...his beliefs...his plans for the near future. i felt comfortable talking to him and i knew i could trust him. and even though we never saw each other much...i felt as if i could tell him almost anything. it was so easy to just say what's on my mind. i really wish i had more time to get to know him better than i already do now. and i keep thinking about the plans and promises we made even though i somehow knew that those plans and promises were the kind that would probably never be met. in the end...he was a truly great friend and a great man. a man with great ambition...faith...understanding and love.

it's times like this that i fear death. not of my own but of people around me...the people i hold dear. there are so many things i'd like to tell my friend who passed away. so many things i'd like to say but i can't. it makes me want to jump up and just tell all my friends everything that i've kept inside for so long. things that they should know about me...things that i've kept secret for so long. but where do i begin? how do i begin?

- Many hamsters blink one eye at a time
- Mosquitoes have 47 teeth
- A goldfish has a memory span of three seconds
- Emus can't walk backwards
- A group of unicorns is called a blessing.
- A group of kangaroos is called a mob.
- A group of owls is called a parliament.
- A group of ravens is called a murder
- There are 333 toilet paper squares on a toilet paper roll.
- By some unknown means, an iguana can end its own life
- A snail's reproductive organs are in its head
- When a horned toad is angry, it squirts blood from its eyes
- A rat can go without water longer than a camel
- The world's youngest parents were eight and nine and lived in China in 1910
- There is only one animal that can completely turn its stomach inside out. The starfish
- The original name for the butterfly was "flutterby."
- Crocodiles and alligators are surprisingly fast on land. Although they are rapid, they are not agile; so if you ever find yourself chased by one, run in a zigzag line. You'll lose him or her every time.
- It is impossible to sneeze and keep one's eyes open at the same time.

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goodbye my friend

i was confronted by a very painful situation today. as i was talking to my friend on msn he informed me that a dear friend of mine passed away earlier this morning. it took me awhile to really sink it in. the first thing i did was to try and find all sorts of excuses to make myself believe that it wasn't true. i kept asking whether he was kidding and i tried to call my friends to find out whether any of them had heard the same news. i'm sorry elaine for asking asinine questions and thanks for putting up with me. after a few phone calls i found out that it was indeed true. that was when i broke down and cried for a good hour or so.

even though he was the type of friend that i didn't see much i knew that he'd be there for me if ever i needed him. even though he was in UK we still kept in touch and talked about everything and nothing in particular. we made plans to meet up and do the things that we both enjoyed when he returned to KL. i looked forward to seeing him again and talking to him because our conversations were always interesting. he made me laugh...and he made me think. i remember in our last conversation....he made me promise him that i'd come back from singapore when he called and we'd meet up and dedicate a whole entire day to doing absolutely nothing. we had so much more to teach each other and to learn from each other.

i know many people might not realize that i was close to him or that i even had a friendship with him. but like i said...even though he wasn't around much and we never really saw each other...we had a unique friendship and i will truly miss him.

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Saturday, July 03, 2004

let's get personal

like i've said countless amount of times...i'm looking forward to tomorrow's show. technically it's today...in less than 8 hours. i hope it's as good as the first one which had me rolling on the floor. i spent most of the day at the office today watching 'whose line is it anyway?'. i found myself laughing out loud a couple of times and i have a feeling my colleagues thought that i've gone stark mad. anyway...it was good fun. i'm hoping that instant cafe theatre will do another run for the actorlympics. the actorlympics had me in tears and ben was laughing till he almost fell of the chair.

today's journey back was pretty boring. didn't meet anyone exciting on the bus. i have a feeling most of the people on the bus were singaporean and they were all headed to genting which by the way they pronounce as 'jen-ting'. initially i thought they were talking about some kampung up in perlis but after finding out that 'jen-ting' has a casino and a theme park i pinpointed it to genting.

will also be watching spidey 2 on monday. at least i think i'll be watching it on monday. ever since i went to singapore i'm no longer the movie buff anymore. i've got no access to pirated dvds and vcds and i can't visit the cinemas as often as i used to. people are starting to watch movies before i do....and if you know me prior to singapore you'd be shocked too. in any case...i'm still in my weirdo foreign flick phase so it doesn't really matter where i am.

once again i shall mention that fahrenheit 9/11 was really good. you should take notice of robert deniro and ben affleck in the opening scene as well as britney telling her fellow americans that she trusts and supports president bush. let's see what happens after she gets married and has little britneys....she'll probably want to retract that statement. after watching that documentary i've come to realize that bush is what he is....probably one of the most undeserving presidents in the history of the united states of america. michael moore convinced me that bush is stupid and irresponsible. my dad likes to make fun of president bush. he'll joke about the way he talks or the things he says on CNN. it's like he's publicly announcing to his fellow americans that he is incapable of doing anything other than reading one of his written speeches. and even then he doesn't pronounce the words right. in the end...i guess he'll be remembered regardless of what he's done...what he'll be remembered as is a different story.

i'll end this post with a few fun facts...i've had so many i'm running out :)

- Roosters can't crow if they can't fully extend their necks
- A bee has 5,000 nostrils
- Research indicates mosquitoes are attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas
- "Strengths" is the longest English word with only one vowel
- The praying mantis is the only insect that can turn its head
- It is a criminal offence to drive around in a dirty car in Russia
- Snails can sleep for three years without eating
- No word in the English language rhymes with "month."
- If an octopus is hungry enough, it will eat its own arms
- The sperm of a mouse is longer than the sperm of an elephant
- Fish cough
- In India it costs less to have sex with a prostitute than it does to buy a condom
- Some insects can live up to a year without their heads
- The smallest number spelled with an "a" is one thousand
- A hippopotamus can run faster than a man
- A butterfly has 12,000 eyes

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Thursday, July 01, 2004

the estimated time of arrival is...

i went to buy my bus ticket today and i found out that plusline was having some sort of technical problem so they suspended ticket sales for this week. so i had to go down all the way to beach road to get another bus ticket. oh well..at least i've secured myself a trip home. i forgot to mention about my bus experience the last time i went back. i missed the cheap bus so i had to take an expensive one. and the bus was soooo comfortable. they even had a stewardess. they served crappy food but the chicken wings was good. anyway...they had this stewardess who would do the whole airplane routine before the journey. welcome aboard aeroline bus from singapore to KL. the journey will take an estimated 5 and a half hours and our estimated time of arrival is 11.30pm. for your safety please remain seated while the bus is on route. if you need any further assistance please feel free to...blah blah blah. it was interesting.

sometimes the bus rides turn out to be interesting. i've met a lot of interesting characters on the bus. most of the time i end up never seeing them again but heck...they just make the bus ride interesting. the bus drivers are usually very nice to talk to as well. it's always an experience and an adventure :)

on another note...fahrenheit 9/11 was really good. makes me want to run out and buy a copy of craig unger's 'house of bush, house of saud' tomorrow. i've been wanting to read that book for sometime now but have been procrastinating. after fahrenheit i think i'm going to make it a point to read it soon. i definitely recommend fahrenheit 9/11. and since i'm into documentaries go watch bowling for columbine as well :)

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