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Monday, November 24, 2003

faking it...

recently i was discussing the topic of desperation with a friend. seems a bit too early for people our age to be desperate to be in a relationship. the only thing we should be desperate for at this age is a job with a good income. but that's besides the point...there are people out there in their twenties who are desperate to be with someone. why? aren't we at the prime of our youth? we should be going out there and having fun with what we have instead of pining away about the stuff we don't have.

sometimes i believe people just need the companionship...a certain someone to just be there. he could be standing there as lame as a tree and it wouldn't matter...as long as he's there. but if that is the case...what are friends for? in my opinion...one lousy relationship is worthless but one great friendship is priceless. so why not just go out there are make friends rather than to hunt down guys in hopes that you'll find one to fill up the gap?

other people just need the affirmation. they need to validate their worth and apparently... being in a relationship is sufficient enough to prove to the world that they're worth something. i pity the people who suffer from low self esteem. if you're not confident with yourself...who will be? i'm not saying that everyone should go out there and boast confidence. i know my limits..i know what i can do and what i can't...i don't know what i can get and what i can't. being in a relationship does not give me the ISO stamp of approval. i see many good people who are in dead end relationships...relationships that are not worth the time and effort and the only reason they're not getting out of it is because they're afraid to be alone.

then there's the type of people who are in relationships because everyone else is in one. it's back to school time where everyone just had to have an eastpak bag cause all the cool people were using it. i know being a 500W lamp post isn't funny. i've definitely been there and it is (more often than not) uncomfortable. but i don't expect it to be any less than uncomfortable.

so they fake it. and i'm not talking about faking an orgasm or pretending to like your other half's cooking. i'm talking about faking full blown relationships. you pretend that you're happy....lie through your teeth when you say 'i love you'....sometimes even change your appearance and style to suit your pseudo relationship. why bother? all that hard work and effort? i thought relationships were supposed to be effortless and things should just come naturally.

we're in our twenties...has it come to a point that we should be afraid of how people perceive us to be? yes...i have to admit that being single can get a bit lonesome and monotonous sometimes but in the event that it does...i choose to go out and have fun with the people i can truly count on...my friends.

i've been through some pretty rough times lately and thanks to my friends i believe i've become a better person through it. yes i do engage in some nasty activities like gambling and staying out really late and all but you know what...when you're in a rut...anything that will take your mind off things is a good thing. this is the part where i get all emo and start thanking you guys and saying how much i appreciate everything and i'll be there for you anytime and anywhere.

enough said :)